Emotions & feelings

When you start a conversation with a Hasidic baby, that's important to know if it's the first time he talks to a shiksa. Retrospectively, i might feel guilty to awaken emotions and feelings they are not used to living with. It's so deep in their subconscious. And you arrive in their life, well organized, well-established, you could be an explosive bomb.
They have the choice of disappearing when their emotions/feelings are too intense to handle them.
I triggered the anger of a few because i asked them not to judge me, i didn't believe in Dog, i asked them to be less aggressive, i decided to stop the conversation (they felt abandoned) or for stupid little things we argued about…
I often felt guilty to lead them into bad ways by telling them they are very smart and they could do something with their brain. To become more aware that they hate your life, their wife… of wasting their potential, following their daily grind with the community handcuffs could make them down…
When they insulted me, i was happy to have a screen laptop to protect me. I felt so bad for them, they are so alone, nobody to talk to… I am curious about the percentage of suicides, i never heard about that so far.
I am surprised by the narrow-minded H who persist to meet shiksa. I would have loved to know why they are so attracted to shiksa. The conversation has ended by insults before i could ask them. A few are just curious to talk once with outsiders and they are scared of going further. So they get back to their life: the outsider grass is not greener.
I talked and met reactionaries, especially one who travels a lot. How does he travel?
Unfortunately ignorance leads to clichés, racism, unfounded comments…

I talked with a few who are in love with their wife.
The chemistry of love is complex with my H babies. It could be seen like a negative and destructive feeling. Their life is under control all the time, but to meet a shiksa may tickle their sexual hormones and also some feelings they are not used to live with. They have electronic crush that i have always found very cute, oui oui. :-)
The deepest love they have is for their children, one of the main reasons not to get divorced.

They handle their feelings better than me for sure.
Bred in an unemotional community is easier to run away from the outsiders. How many 'broke-up' with shiksa because she was not Jewish, she was too demanding…? The comfortable nest of the community, family and Dog is more powerful than the qualms of a poor shiksa. :-(

Life of sacrifices…